This week..

Ugh..
Just gets longer.. But Friday is tomorrow. My assistant has been out since Tuesday.. Personal family stuff. .. Serious stuff.. I hope it all works out for the best...
But..it means I have to pick up the slack.. Be everywhere. . get it all done.. And we have not been light on issues. Equipment failures..random breakdowns.. Motor weirdness.. Microphone noise.. Power supply failures...plus all the network and computer stuff. And the off site prep for the remote camera we are trying to get going..
And I need to hire a body to work in position that will be redundant in 5 months.. For chicken feed..  Plus all the account and billing problems.
Just ugh! Or....Arrrrgh!!!

You... Thanks for being there to help me through this.. Thanks for listening...thanks for letting me help..letting me listen.. At least I know I am helping someone... Someone that appreciates it.. Someone that makes me smile.. And someone that let's me help them to smile.

If all I ever needed to do was to make people smile..I would.. I would never be unhappy...ever again... I try.  It can be hard. Not everyone wants to be happy.... Really... There are those that are constantly trying to find the next thing to make them stay miserable...those people like it when everyone is just as miserable..and would not know a real happy thought if it flew in the window and blew pixie dust in their face....
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But.. Those of us..looking for the next smile.. We are in good company.. Some of us have had to endure terribleness in our lives..but carry on and look for the reasons to smile..yes..look and find the reasons to smile..do your best..shine.. Be a beacon for the lost..uplift.. Smile..at strangers.. You just may make their day...maybe turn it around for them.. And it will do something for you too.. Be kind.. It will come back to you..when you need it most..

All of that.. Someone does that for me.. I am very grateful you exist.

I hope I can do the same.

As we sneak into February.. I hope to move on my plans..and find the proper direction.. The right move.. In the right direction.. And continue this adventure and fill it with smiles...hugs... And good thoughts.

Life needs to listen to me..I know how to be happy.. Let me.

R 2/01/18