Well here i go again..

Got a bit going on this weekend..
This week isn't really over yet..
Got a morning meeting with a few corp officers and some money guys.. should be interesting to say the least.
Starts at 7:30am!
Not the way to start a Saturday, much less end a week..

Oh well, been done before..

So, in prep, I had my steak, and went home and slept for 2 hrs, now I am out for a few.

Yes, I am waiting to see if someone will come in, but work will come first for them, and guessing it won't be after.. a guy can hope.. if not I got a couple hrs to relax and prep my mind for tomorrow morning..

Trying not to be desperate, but just hoping not to appear that way at least. 

Got my plans for vacation. Gonna take call through the 25th and take off the 26 thru next year.. prob end up with a few days short of my 8 used.. with new years in between, but should be interesting to see how this year ends. 

So how much of a jackass have you been?
Your words not mine...
Do they only come, after you let your guard down, otherwise your all hardass? 

Is it a jackass toward your friend?
A jackass toward a relationship?
Or just in general?

You won't tell me, but it would be nice to figure out.

I am still me...
What ever that means..
Dweeb, loser, jerk, loner,
Nice guy, or all that goes with that..
Lover, booty call, or someone to get to know better,
I am not a one nighter..
Someone to be used, even though people have tried, and some have succeded, but only cause I let them.
I may sound (on here) like I have low self esteem..
ISTBA be quiet...
But, generally, I know I am a person that if ya got to know me, you could not help liking me. I am worth more than meets the eye, I can be your best friend, and don't require much maintainence, just a little attention now and then.
It just takes a little time, to get to see who I am.
Your investment of time will have you wondering why everyone don't see me for what I am ..

My little secret, and it could be yours too.

Time has always been our enemy, some can go a long way with it, and some fight it day to day.

I hope it won't become a struggle, time and me, I may have changed a bit over the years, but the real me is still here, waiting for what I deserve. And I am working at it, daily, but acceptance and understanding has always come hard, but I persist, and hope I can look back and see nothing to regret.

Just me,
Still just me...

R

12/07/12 11:08 pm