End of 12

Well, I am home, no plans.
The person I want to spend this night with is in for the night too. Early plans.
But, agreed to be a designated driver, so will be driving in the beginning of 13.
Ok, will see if I can be a co-pilot..  I would love to spend a couple hours of the new year with you.
Sounds sappy but I would.
But my guess is not.
I also understand that, somewhat.

I hope to move forward this year to come.
I don't want to just exist day to day, I want to see about enjoying being me. I would love to share that, but I knew how to do that in the past, I can figure it again.

This was a full year for me, I didn't expect all that happened, I found a new friend and actually had a girlfriend for a week.
But that changed and still have a close friend.

Work is strange both of them the day job is busy the night job is not but there is change there. There has been a lot going on and I need to ask for that raise. We work too hard and do too much and it has been going on for so long it is expected. They all got bonuses, and we got more work, and longer days and weekends and no compensation, barely a thank you. We did make it possible for them to earn that bounus..

The year is over and I do not know where I stand, I have taken a step back, and dug afew new financial holes, but nothing I can't survive, and just need to continue doing what I do best.
I would love the chance to stop worrying about one part of my life, but I guess I can't really pick what will make my life easier, I just have to work at it all and see what I can make easier.
I will.
I wish this was easier, but it never is.

The living situation is better but the same. Doing what I can as usual, staying out of the way and trying not to enable as I have been told. Been more than a year, and not much has changed.

I have and will continue to take care of L and myself, with or without help. I still have purpose and drive, I will do my best to have a good year.

Happy New Year. 
12/31/12 9:44p