tasks.. to keep my mind clear

Its the weekend.. I have been chore driven.. been shopping for trip clothes.. bought a tripod for one of the cameras..

Fixed 2 radios and got them boxed up for shipping on Monday.. one the check is in the mail..the other.. paid and banked. 

I ordered some car parts...for the other cars.. and paid bills. 

Washed my linens and remade the bed. Tomorrow.. if it isnt raining..mow the lawn.. maybe vacuum.

Its Pizza night..so no dinner worrys..

Need to find some afternoon diversions..

I have a couple ideas..

Mainly depends on how late I sleep.

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Just so it is said..kinda out loud..

Im feeling ghosted..or friendzoned..

Permanently... The contact is really limited..and mostly one sided.. 

No real conversations in months..

Im hurt. And very confused. 

Im not perfect by any stretch of the word..but..Im also not a stalker. . Or a violent guy.  Im not looking to take anything from anyone.. I only want someone to want me around. 

I dont think I ask too much..

Is it too much to ask to be included..

Maybe it is.

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Sure..I can be just friends.. 

Been there before..

Hell, its where I have always been..

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I wish life would stop teasing me.

Im old and tired of following the brick road.. only to find..the wizard is only man behind the curtain.. and only gives you what you already had.

Unfortunately..if it has not been enough.. it still isnt...and here we are..just us.. keeping on..

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Yeah, a bit dark.. 

But friends are all I have.. 

There are few of those.

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I will move the marker down to a blank spot.. it isnt gonna happen.. not even for a little... 

Too bad.. 

For us and me...

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R