The bridge work is done. I am waiting to hear if the bosses are going to change my schedule back to 8 to 4..
Been working 7 to 3 during the construction. Leaving at 6 to beat the traffic..been getting to work about 6:30..and sitting there in my car till i can clock in at 7. Not allowed to clock in early or late..
But now that the bridge is done, i can sleep in an hour and still leave by 6:30 and get there before 7... if they keep my schedule the same... Plus with daylight savings falling back an hour.. it will be easier to keep getting up early .
I did ask.. and got no response from the boss.. the supv..said he would let us know..
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I asked about this weekend..
I was sure it was gonna be a no..she is still covering shifts.. i just want one night and a day.. a few hours...
But i don't want to be a pain in the ass, i know she has obligations and responsibilities..and im just the boyfriend who lives too far away.
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So, i will check in the morning for dinner reservations.. L and J want to go to Hyannis..
We could with out a reservation..but i will see if one can be made.
The project car did great last night out to The Cape and back..
No codes . Running good.
Gonna take it for groceries tomorrow.. next i need a road trip..
A few hundred miles..
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Now the question.. do i keep it.. or sell it.. i think i can get $5k for it.
Ruben just sent me a link for one ..$1000.. stopped working after it got rained on.. probably a corroded module.. could be a simple fix and not too expensive..
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Im fighting.. i think im loosing.. i had a couple cool conversations.. then i must have asked the wrong thing..
And nothing..
I understand busy.. but.. no response? At all?..like i never asked a question..
I have been debating..just drive up.. time it.. and text and say im here, if you have a minute... I just want a hug and want to give you your birthday present. Then hug and go home.
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It would be worth the drive..
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I hope it would show in really not giving up.
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She had been stalked.. i dont want to do that.. i just care..and cant figure out why we are having such difficulties..
I must have screwed up and have not recovered..
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The milestone looms...
Im ready.. but..it is a place i didnt think i was gonna be..im old..and
Have made lots of mistakes..
Learned a bit...but..still not ..
Where i wanted to be.. a bit of regret..i was making good ...real good $$ , but since i decided to bail..for sanity.. i am on the verge of struggling.. not there yet . But less than 6 yrs.. or 2yrs..
... No .
More like 6.. at the current situation..
Maybe..i should look again at Providence...was paying good ...
Maybe portland???
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I could sell this place for $650k..pay it off.. and still pocket $300k..
There are houses in NH and ME for $200k...Land J are going no where.. so if i want to move..they wont care.
.. i think.. i have done all i should.. but will continue..if i can ..
L is an adult.. and could learn to survive with out my support.
Im too old to be the sole means of support..
Im not.. and been weaning it off..
I think its one reason why i left Dedham.. less money from me
A bit from L.. and a bit more..
Not all from me
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Yet..here i am worried about the electric and gas..
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I don't know how to feel about Wednesday..
60..
Dont feel 60..
Don't want to feel 60...
Its too old..
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Im old
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R
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