doubt...

Good morning.

Yes, i wont say doubt has crept in..it is just here. 

I cannot help feeling that im being held at arms lenght. 

Im not sure if it is because im not trusted..or if the timing just is not in our favor.

I really want this to work. I want to find a way to be with her.

Yeah , 5hours drive is tough, but i am willing. Yeah, work and home are obstacles. But isnt it worth the effort? Shouldn't we at least try to make those things a part of what we want. 

I am more than willing.

I liked her then, and the time after, and now.. 

Yeah, we can be friends..but can we be more? I want more.. 

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It just isnt fair.. i dont know how to fix this doubt.. mine or hers.. 

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My doubt, is that she has given up..replaced any thought of me with all she has to do. It was always there , i was just trying to squeeze into her very busy life. 

I understand why we do that. We let everything become the reason we get up.. 

We forget to let someone in, let in the happy.

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R