quiet friday

Work went slow but good. I hooked up the shop repeater and went through the changes I will need for Orleans repeaters.. it took a bit to find the right settings , but we are set.

I drilled out my antenna mount and have a idea. I think I'm gonna try to set it up this weekend.

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Monday is Juneteenth..it is a holiday..and I have Tuesday off too.

N will be here this weekend..Sunday?? Probably.

To spend Fathers day with her dad . 

We have plans to meet Monday morning for coffee, and then maybe the beach.. I wonder if she wants to swim..?  Or just hang out and enjoy the sea. I guess we will find out .

Looking at parking restrictions..that we will go to Scusset and pay to park.  Then walk up to Sagamore beach .. or not.

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I'm gonna look at Pearl and see what she needs for the U P trip.. .

Money is ok..but had to dip into the reserve to pay bills.. and Lindsey is thinking of quitting her job.. so . .. I will need to figure out Bills.. the student loan is under 19k.. she has 18k in savings....

Mr B has not come across with the loan forgiveness .  .. so we will keep paying till it done.

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The mortgage is still too high, but we are making it work.

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I was notified that my boss at the tv station is leaving and looking for a replacement.. it's a high paying  job.. probably $100- $150k.. but hight stress.  And Boston.. long drives..long days..

I could . .. ..

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Wishful thinking..

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I'm nearly..  xx . I think I need to not think about it..

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So.. how should I proceed?

Should I lean into retirement? Or keep on..?? 

I'm really not done..and financially not there yet. 

I have no idea how to survive the next 10 years.. or more..

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And still.. alone.

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Really, I do think I have messed this up .

This time should be much different.

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I need to .. find .. an end game ...

A way to..relax .

Happy. Satisfied..

Not angry or depressed.

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R