quick note

Waitng for food...

It has been as was expected.

I blew it..said visitor a few hours.. 

On a Saturday with a Monday holiday.. then worked on radios all day. Then worked on Lindsey's car on Monday. Had to be done ..

The time spent was good.. but not sure of how it's going... 

I worked late Tuesday, and was dead tired Wednesday. 

It's Thursday..got a call a few min before I left work.. could not talk, she suggested to call me back in 10 min

... No call on my way home..so in 45min, I sent a text.. 'was I supposed to call?'.. she replied . .. 10 min was too long..out to dinner ...will call when done..

So that is how it goes.. 

Now we have a possibility of a visit on Saturday for the pond and hanging out at the house.

I am hopeful...

So..took a drive and am waiting on food.. then drive home..and sleep and Friday!!! 

I guess I can't make this any worse.. 

I think I look bad . .. you know... Like I don't care.. or am indifferent.. 

But ... NO.. 

I am so hooked.. it pains me to mess this up.. to look like I don't care.. 

Oh I care. 

But I will always be alone in the grand scheme..

Only because I require more..

I won't get it.

Food is here..

R