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Well, I think it is time.
I have been planning a few things.
Some have happened, some will happen, it is time for one more thing..
We went and looked, filled out the application, made a choice, lets see. A couple days, maybe a week..
I cant wait, we will see.

Barnacle.?
Or Joseph.. ?

My friend is sick, finally went to a place hopefully will see a doctor tomorrow. I know after a few rough days, it is about treatment, calm things down to be able to fight off the bug, be able to eat, and drink and rest.
We take many things for granted where we live, and other places can be very different. Hopefully the quality of help is as good, and beside the distance needed to travel, and the differences and difficulty, living remote can add to it, I hope it goes better in the next couple days.

You are definitely a concern to me, I hope it gets better quickly.
You are in my thoughts.

I have my early vacation time approved. I am waiting on lodging confirmation, then I can establish travel plans.
I also have my summer rally dates requested, but that has time for planning. L will be coming on that, hopefully it will go well.

Work informed me, they have lots of money invested in the superbowl this year, so I get a shifted work schedule, and will be working at the transmitter building for the duration.
No OT just work.
Then we are in sweeps.. No time off, major projects freeze, daily support..

The cars are done except for L"s windshield, and.next month is inspection time, so I need to get that scheduled.

I have lots radio work coming in almost daily.. I have 10 clients in progress.. 2 more in the mail.. And a few more pending. I have plenty to keep me busy.

Oh yeah, it is tax time... I think I have most of my documents, I will process my stuff as early as I can. Last year was ok..but not as good as the past.. But here we are and I have made the most I have ever made in a year this past year.. It was a milestone for me. It took a long time..
We will see if taxes reflect any of that. At the least, it will fund part of my road rally.

Personally.. I am alone. Alone daily, and every night.. I have a love, but the daily contact is less and less, I understand it is busy season, and I know how work can leech all your energy..
With L working nights and me days, we barely see each other. When she is off, she sleeps most of the day.. So I am usually home alone. Maybe our addition, our new housemate will make it less alone...

I am thinking about the things I can do this year..
Some things I have to just do.. I know there are things I want to do again, and for the first time.. I just need to do it..make it happen.. Then some of those can be regular things .. If not for us, for me..

Time management.. I think that is the thing I have been missing.
I need to have plans.. Schedules.. Routine.. But to do that I need motivation..a reason..
I know I can..I have.. Mostly it is desire.. And not being Lazy..

Kinda like getting up every day, and doing the day to day..it is a learned behavior..


Finally...

I am in a place..
I really want to be..
It feels comfortable..but frustrating...
The years have jaded my affections..
I am so cautious..and want..but.. Cant figure out if it is a need or a want or if it just needs to be...
I am too old to just try it.. But not old enough to give up..
But, life has given me this..and so far it works.. Besides the off times, but.. I could work with this..
Little doses of me are much better than day to day..
I grow on you..
Some times I get scraped off......
Some times not..

A guy can hope..

R