plans

So..no 

Not going up. N is working..

too many call outs ..

Im still taking Monday and Tuesday off. I might as well.. 

No point in trying to save the time.

I actually had 20 hours personal time..and used these 2 days, I will still have 4hrs left . But only 3 days left of work.

So, they will pay out the roll over vacation and the remaining comp time and I was told 53hrs vacation??

That I just earned..not expecting that ..but it would be nice.

Then 2 weeks at the new job and my first pay check. Lets see if its all gonna work.

I do get another 4 day weekend..day 1 is Tuesday.. this will be three 4 day weekends in a row.. 

That is something.

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I need to check my car..I think I need a strut bushing on the driver side. Its been knocking over bumpy roads.

Also the morning warm up is taking a while.. and it sputters a bit.. may need a set of plugs.. 

The dealer says they will give me $2500 trade in.. towards a 2022...

HA! 

The grey one needs a set of brake pads and a o2 sensor.. maybe a battery.. and I could use it a few days a week.. less than $500.. and it should be viable..

A option.

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I said it.

She heard me.

Later she asked if I only said those things because she was drunk and would not remember.. I said no..

I know she would remember.

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Just what it means to her.. I need to find out.

It means a lot to me.

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Maybe . . We can have some time next weekend.

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L is making plans for MTTS.. gonna ask for the time off.. too early for me..but I figure it wont be much of an issue .

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A job change.. back to something different.. it will be weird for a bit..

Its primarily a support shift.. and for me will be 12 hour days.. 

The money will be welcome..and hopefully it will help build up my depleted cushion.

And my vacation money.. and hopefully vacations..

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These past couple weeks..I have been a bit scattered..forgetting simple daily routines.. forget to shave.. forget my wallet.. forgot to put the empty coffee pot in the machine..so not like me..

Some level of stress .. just overwhelming me.. plus fighting a cold for the past week . 

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I hope it passes..

It has a weird feel...

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So, L requested I get my latest shot..

Otherwise she is not gonna go with me on the rally.. I said, not gonna happen. She said then she wont be going with me.. I said ..it will not happen. She expressed that she is worried I may get infected during the trip, and that she would be lost if I died.  I decided to table the subject.

I did mention she is my beneficiary on all my accounts..

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I changed the subject to dinners.

The new job .. I will not be home for 4 nights. They will be responsible for their dinners.

J was listening..and requested that L help teach her to cook . 

I mentioned the cookbook..and simple follow the recipes..

We decided.. soups and stews and simple dinners . .. as we transition..

Small steps.. it has been long enough..and it is past time . .

Next.. chipping in to clean.. 

L has been checking the litterbox..

Thats good.. now if I can get the dishes done and garbage taken out..

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Only taken a few years ..

But... No nagging..just realizations..

Subtle..

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We have a working dishwasher..i have never used it in 5 years ..

It could be utilized..

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Lets see how it goes..

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Optimistic!

R