out.

So, I decided to go and sit and listen to a live band, this Friday night, now. 

Said as I was leaving that I was going out..  and I left a note on the board. 

Figuring they had headphones on..and didn't hear me.. 

So.. I'm here.  Having an Abcran..and bending my ears . 

I have a detail tomorrow around 11.. so I should be ok.. 

It's a drive 20 min, setup, and sit for 4 hours.. break it down, and drive back.. a literal show-n-tell. Actually more of a billboard.. appearance.. 

Not bad for overtime money. 

I have been trying to get caught up with radio work.. I got one out yesterday and one done tonight.. and 2 of 4 done. It's still fun.. and challenging and it makes $$

I am still just me.. no one to take my time.. A is in Europe and elsewhere.. .

I have no one else that wants me around.. I have a couple that could make time for me if I asked.. but no one that wants me around constantly..

So I stay busy.. and keep working..and all that.

L is working,and the new roommate is adjusting..and seems to be ok.

I have been looking to lower some bills.. mortgage and insurances..

But so far , no luck. I actually had one broker sayi should stay with what I got, cause he could do no better??

Oh well.. 

I have to figure out how much this new arrangement is gonna add up to..I will probably be asking L to pitch in.. I don't plan on shouldering all the expenses.. 

Work has been busy, even the busy work has been just that..busy..we have a challenge of an old brinks truck.. conversion..messy but still fun and challenging.. 

And we just got 5 new cruisers to add radios to..so we will be busy next week. Both the supv and the mgr will be out till Wednesday.. 

I am expecting an email with  a task list.. 

Not much else..

Just missing a someone... And any or all that goes with...

I need to figure out how..and try ..

I can't keep hitting on old flames, or old missed opportunities.. but I am lonely..and need someone to give me a physical meaning to my life..

I can no.. have put my self into this routine..just to stay sane.. but I have always needed someone, and usually ended up alone..or extremely disfunctional...

Yes, C ,M and A.. 

And almost everyone after ...

Yet.. here I am, hoping for someone that isn't medicated..either prescribed or self-medicated . .. and somewhat sane..

Wishfull thinking..

Really in this age..I don't think it's possible.

Yet ... I am hopeful..and really.. surprisingly... Not desperate ..

I am patient.. and hopefully won't miss it when it comes my way...

If you are out there.. find me..

R