Looking down the road..

 I am trying to look down the road. 

I am hoping the changes we all have been faced with making these past months have not been too severe.

I fear too much time has passed and too many changes were required of everyone individually, that it will have to be a 'new normal' because going back to what it was before seems like it will be really difficult, because I don't think we can remember how.  I am not sure I remember what it was. So many subtle changes along with the obvious changes and requirements.  No one knows how much of any of this was real and accurate. We know stuff happened and we know it was on a world wide scale. We know it is still going on in many places. 

I know many people that have been scared to death, and others that think it is all fake, exaggerated and manufactured. I know we will never know the whole truth. 

I said a long time ago, that I know that things will be different once it is all over, back to some form of normal, but a new one.  

I think we have lost a few things that will be difficult to get back. 

So here we are, ticking off another month.. the months have been going by with out much fanfare. If I didnt have to create reports for work, I would never notice the days going by. I do not think I am getting much accomplished, not as much as I should.. in any part of my life. these past few weeks have been so busy, with schedule changes and total restructuring of how I do my day to day, that I dont think I am managing the time to the fullest. I have lots to do and no time to do any of it. 

Well, I had to make time for the dentist, thanks broken filling. I need to find an eye doctor, thanks to double eye infections this past week.. and then there is my lack of a personal physician.. got to do that.. oh and my car is over due for its yearly service, but what is new there. 

My personal life is about as isolated as it can get. L just added a day to her work schedule. so now we have no days off together. Just trying to make sure we say hello for a few minutes each day. I have been working on radios when I am home and not passed out..but kinda buried in that with a few units that require more technical time than I can spare in continuous sittings.  So, falling behind there. 

I have been making efforts to pay down and not make more bills, and am succeeding slowly. I have been part of a couple back to back information breaches. Even an attempt at the theft of my unemployment benefits. Nothing was taken from me, it was caught before anything happened. Because of that and the previous and more recent breaches, I have free credit monitoring. The monitoring has allowed me to keep an eye on my credit score.. it has been climbing steadily for the past 2 years. Since I have been paying down moving bills and credit cards, all that is helping drive down the total amount I owe and because of that my score is a hundred points higher than when I moved here. Sure the Pandemic has made it so we could not travel or spend money on travel and not been able to go shopping except for essentials. So, paying the bills instead of making more bills.  

I am just trying to stay busy, there is no shortage of things to do. I need to figure out what to do with my lawn. I had an estimate from a landscaper, the high was $17k the low was $5500.. I dont think I can go that route. So it looks like maybe I will have to plan a few days off and do the work myself.. I wont be able to get it done with 2 days off a week.. so I will have to make plans for that soon. 

I need a sanity vacation, maybe a road trip to no where.. we will see. 

 Welcome to May.. 

R 5/2/2021