I guess that is my point... Hello April 2021!

 What does it mean when I say 'I love you'?
In most circumstances, situations.. where the meaning is easily understood.

Then there is me. In my mindset.
Saying I love you , being in love, and loving someone, can be different and expressed very differently.

There are many levels of love as well.

For me, I typically do not 'say' it.
I show it, and mean to say it or mean to show it, most often.

If I have 'said' it to you, I hope the meaning was understood, I hope in the situation it was evident as to the intended meaning.
but, as with all things me, probably not..

For instance, If I just got through spending a great amount of time with you, specifically with you as my focal point, and we are parting, especially parting with no idea if we will see each other again soon or ever..
The "I love you" was my thank you for being you and allowing me to be in your life for this moment..
it was a promise from me, to you that I will value the time we have shared, and truly hope that we can do any bit of it again..
Maybe in the next moment.. next day, or any time frame beyond this one sliver in our existence.
Really it should be an affirmation  of what you should already know.
This one statement is deep. it has real meaning for me. it is never said lightly, or automatically.

There are too many things in life that go unsaid, and many times people never know just exactly how you feel.
Some people say 'I love you' all the time, no idea how deep it goes or if it just something on the surface, soon to be forgotten.
The expression can be very confusing to some, scary to others.
Especially if it was not expected, if it was just supposed to be 'casual', platonic or a simple friendship.

Sometimes it can start as a casual, platonic friendship and the situations change and it becomes more than that, weather intended or not, it can happen.. then what you do with it matters a lot.

So, if you heard me say something like this to you,
First: I meant it.
Second: if you don't know how I meant it, or are surprised, or concerned about it.. I would be happy to try to explain my reason for the expression.
Third: If you thought I said it, but your sure I didn't, but sure I meant to... we need to talk..

Finally, in my life, I never typically said this phrase with out meaning..
That being said, it is something I had thought through before saying..
so.. if it was said, I probably still do.. even if we never talk or see each other anymore, or if we see each other everyday. I never say this without meaning.

I guess that is my point...
R
4/3/21