Here we are, still doing what we must. It is starting to get warm, even the nights are warming up. It is still raining now and then, but most days are warm.
Work is as it has been, some days we are full on and have way too much to do, others are easier.
My social status is about the same, I did get a visit from another guy looking to get out of the house. He stopped by to pickup a repaired radio.
It is the end of May, I do not know how many days it has been.. I don’ t really want to count. I do not see this going back to normal. It will be different from now on.
L got tested, because she was questioned before work and had a scratchy throat, probably from a cold, but could not go back to work till she got proof. The test was negative, and she resumed work.
Her car still needs to go back to the dealer to clear out an engine code, not the thermostat I changed, but the sensor the dealer said needed to be changed.
I did get my inspection sticker for my car, but still need to schedule maintenance.. I am 5ooo miles over the service interval.
The daily drive to and from work is starting to get more congested. It wont be long before we are back to the typical slowdowns and traffic jams.
I still have radios coming in. I just finished three, and the guy was upset cause one still had an issue and the other two seemed weaker.. he sent all three back. I fixed the one, the others don’t have anything wrong with them. I was gonna just send them back and fully refund his payment.. but I think I explained to him reasonably why they are tuned properly now as he requested. I will still lose money for two ways shipping.
I have tried to stay positive through all this time, and keeping to the same old routine, slightly modified, is all I can do.
It is funny, two years ago, I found my old friend, and was happy to spend a little amount of time with them, because I knew they no longer lived in the USA, and would be going home soon with no real reason to return. That was that, and thirty-five years ago was a long time. No making up for lost time, no need to get too attached.
Then they came back last year for another visit, and explained they realized they should visit once a year to see family that is still here.
We got to spend a bit more time together, but I was told their travel plans and everyone they planned to visit in the States, so I only expected to get maybe a week of their time.
The situations changed and it turned out to be a few weeks, then a few more.
I then planned to visit them with L out of the country in December. We did and it was fun. Especially the out of the country travel. We got to use our passports for the first time.
We spent two weeks, and came back. I planned to try to go back early this year. January and February didn’t work out. So I booked tickets for me to go in April... then the Pandemic happened, and all was cancelled.
Now, I am back to not knowing if I should go back to, ‘be glad for the time you got, it isn’t gonna go anywhere...maybe a visit here in the future..’ do not make any plans around this.. the chance is gone and won’t be the same if it happens again.
The current social situation on the planet makes any option a wait and see option.. since no one knows when anything will get back close to what it once was.. no point in trying to make anything happen till this all calms down..
There is a song on the radio.. ‘ I keep mistaking lonely for love’ ..
That about sums it up..
I could never figure out how to be in the right now, I have always looked forward to that possible future, mainly because I have been looking for that future. I tried to watch and learn from others around me, how to find a right now. I just never saw the point and never learned all the nuances of how to pull it off. I came close a couple times but fortunately they were not looking for me, but some other guy, and moved along. I was left to learn what I could and here I am.
I have friends that I could spend time with, people that could need me as much as I need them and less... but no way to even begin that.
Fortunately for the ‘Social Distancing’ I don’t even talk to anyone outside of work.
I guess everyone is waiting for 2021...
Anyway, I guess I was able to put some of this down, and I should go find something productive to do before I go to bed.
Be safe..
R
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