Holiday's approaching

It is the 23rd of December, I ave been working the 3 to 11A the past week, and a 5 to 1P on Sat.
I am about as burnt out as I have been .. I get to do it again this week.
Work the holiday's and eat and sleep..
I have ordered a few things and paid for the house essentials, met with someone about getting on city  gas and off propane.. but ..of course, it wont go in till March/April. 
I bought a house generator.. and gifts..  the engine will arrive at the end of next week.. I have tools to buy.

Still work , eat, sleep.. pay bills.. I have stuff to fix, I need to spend some time on the bench.
I still need furniture for my room. and the office. But so far the kitchen is set up and functional.

I have not done any yard work, or even opened the shed. I probably should go out and start the snowblower and make sure I have fuel. The leaves can blow around for now.

The rest of the house is clean, and I still need to figure out bookshelves and file cabinets.
Today, My day off, will be shopping and maybe a drive.. maybe some time on the workbench.
Not much else to do but catch up on sleep. I tried to visit yesterday, but no one was home.
I didn't call or text.. so my bad.

After this week, I go back to a regular schedule then another shift change to the 3p to 11p for 6 days..
that will be fun.. if i am not completely burnt out by the end of that.. I should be able to handle anything.

I go a text yesterday morning at 1:15a from my old work, stating they had completed the remote automation and that "we are done here" meaning they are now unmanned.  5 of guys who used to work for me are unemployed.  Sorry.. Not a thing I could do.

Just another 5 people to add to the list of those that hate me. Really no fault of mine, but I am the one that will be blamed.

sorry..

Just another reason the explains why I am still just me, all alone.
If I could do something I would, I did as much as I could.. but fell short..
Knowing this, dont ease the stress..or allow me to sleep..

Well, time to get into bed and try to sleep. I have chores to do in the morning..

R 12/23/18