So..
The vacation was needed.
It was what I needed.
But..here I am. Still alone.
Not doing much to change that.
My own fault.
I cannot deny...that is who I have been my whole life... me.
Im not gonna jump in and approach anyone..
Which is why.. I am alone.
Why I will be alone.
Its not a revelation..
Not news...
Just.. I need to learn not to care..to go for it..and if it fails..to shrug it off and keep on..
Yes.. I know what to do.
Just not how to do it without becoming an arrogant asshole.
Sure they never show the pain..
Or feel it..
But .. not me.
Not me!
Damn.
R 8/2/16
The vacation was needed.
It was what I needed.
But..here I am. Still alone.
Not doing much to change that.
My own fault.
I cannot deny...that is who I have been my whole life... me.
Im not gonna jump in and approach anyone..
Which is why.. I am alone.
Why I will be alone.
Its not a revelation..
Not news...
Just.. I need to learn not to care..to go for it..and if it fails..to shrug it off and keep on..
Yes.. I know what to do.
Just not how to do it without becoming an arrogant asshole.
Sure they never show the pain..
Or feel it..
But .. not me.
Not me!
Damn.
R 8/2/16
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