Why do you do this?

Ok.. I just wanna know...
In the past few weeks.. I have had random coincidences happen more than once.. I am beginning to wonder if its random at all.

One after another I get phone calls from people I thought would never speak to me again.. then I get texts from people I thought didn't want to communicate with me again..

And the reasons are the same..and a week after they should have had reason.

WtF..??

Are you just messing with me???

Am I not going through enough.. with out having to figure out why you decided to get back in touch and at the same time as the other ???..

What the hell did I do?

I don't get it.. have I not been punished enough in this life ?..

Bad choices made from mis information and having to live with that and now not being able to have a life.. not knowing how.. or with who.. thinking I should just quit.. give up and work myself to death.

ISTBA.. but its all I know..
Except for the 3 weeks I am viable for.. I just wish I knew how to make them end to end, instead of months between.. then at least I wouldnot be so lonely..

R 8/27/13