Not much to say, the last few hrs of 2010 were very much the same as the rest of the year. (without any of the bright spots)..
I ended up home by myself till 11:15p then drove the 40min to await being the designated driver. The last 10 or so mins of the year were better, but now I am home and can have a drink, by myself, and reflect on just why I let myself be this way.
I never used to be this way, sure I was lonely, but I had friends that cared, or appeared to care, now I don't even have that, no one is even faking it. I am not even sure I know how to make friends any more. (I really don't think I ever knew how.) Usually it was what I can do for someone, that made me their friend. Sure there were the little few that stuck around after getting to know me.. most ran as fast as they could, til they needed something else...
Enough of the pity party.. onward with 2011...Let's see who I can piss off this year.
Merry New Year.
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