My problem

Yes, I admit to having a problem.. don't alert the media..

Someone was explaining why they were put out, by another person having a 'steady' and lopping off all other relationships to devote their time to the 'current'..They stated, wait till I have a 'steady' and am not there for them 24/7.. and they are not the priority anymore. 'I have been there for them when they have needed me..now I am not as important, l because they have their current 'other' ..They will see what it is like when I am not there all the time.' etc... I said, realizing I am going through that now.."I know how that feels."

So, my problem that I am admitting to: I have designed my life as it is now, around doing for you, being for you, being available to you.. even though it never looked that way.. and now you have restructured your life for you, not us(the family - not specifically Me..) and I am having difficulty adjusting to it.  It has been over.. Us... for a long time, Longer than I knew.. but, because I never fully understood what was happening or had happened, I kept on doing whatever to make you happy, like I should have.. and now that it is all out and explained.. I have to adjust..
So, yes it is weird to know I have to start thinking on what to do if you were not here and to try to act as if you are not here.. even though you are. Prepare for when you will not be here.. it is an adjustment..

Don't know if I can move fwd.. but will try.. I know I want to..just not sure I know If I can.

R