Interesting thought..
No I do not think anything will automatically switch back to normal. I think normal is a a long time away, and will not look like any normal we remember.
That being said, we need to find what works and make it our new normal. Stop just going with the status that we have been given and make the adjustments to our lives that will allow us to begin to feel comfortable with the new normal. Yes, still being safe, but returning to our lives, so we are actually living again.
It has been months since I have done anything but work and home and sleep. Not that that is very much different than my normal, but the restrictions to my daily thought, and routine are there.. and that is what weighs the most. I know I cannot just go visit, when I am lonely, I cannot just get in the car and go somewhere there are people, so I can go and not feel alone..be alone.. I used to do these things. I know I cannot now and if I do, I am not allowed to be anything but distant.
I know people that are done, and dont even try to restrict themselves, and frankly, I dont want to take that chance.. too risky.. I catch myself sometimes, even now, forgetting the protocols.. But quickly am reminded or remember.. and I make sure I continue with the safe practices.
I have had 2 family members that I know are careful, end up with positive tests, So far one has recovered, the second, was just notified.. neither live nearby, and I have seen neither in the past 4 years. I am hoping the best for them, and those around them. We have had people at work test positive, and the proper protocols have been in place, so no one was in contact, and their areas were sanitized.
I have been reasonably careful, although I must go to work and do the shopping, so far every thing has been ok. L has had a few scares in the beginning, caught a cold and monitored her symptoms and even in the beginning took a test, but all negative.. just colds.
Still, I am feeling the length of the time that has passed without anyone beside the cat to talk to. Yes I see L for short periods, but mostly just around dinner time. Our days off do not cross paths except Tuesday's , and lately with the holiday's and time off, I have been covering shifts and moving my schedules so much, we almost never see each other. I just had 4 days off, and saw her less than when I work. My other friend has been gone almost a month, but we saw less and less of each other the month before that, because of work coverage schedules and exposure scares.. that it seems like that they have been gone longer, and of course, now the contact is less and less as well due to limited connectivity.
Again, feeling very lonely, most of the time. This coming week, I am working another coverage shift all week plus 1 day. This shift, I will be mostly alone, unless something breaks or someone needs something.. so 6 nights of work isolation in addition to sleeping most of the day, and driving the rest to and from work.
Even having someone to talk to or chat with would be nice. But , I dont see that happening much.
So, Hello December 2020..
R 12/7/20
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