nothing more to say...continued

Really not continued.. just no more to really say.

I am trying to keep on going each day, one day at a time.
I have bee caught up in my day to day... the days are moving along.
It is nearly the end of July. I have been going in this mode for so long with no real milestones, I am blurring from week to week.  I am paying my bills and buying my food. I usually plan and monitor my finances week to week, by the bills I have coming due and the money I have coming in.
I am fairly routine about this...Usually.
I forgot that I got paid last week! ... Forgot...
I paid bills, and planned on paying the next due bill.
Then looked and noticed, even though I was up to date, I had little available cash in my account for the next round of bills.. after balancing and reconciling my check book, I realized I last entered a deposit on July 2.. it was the 23rd!
After checking,  I found my paycheck was deposited on July 17..
This never happens, I keep close tabs on my finances.
I did not realize the pay week had come and gone.. it was a blur.

I know, not a big thing, but I need something to help me mark the passage of time..
I have nothing to look forward to, nothing to look back on, the past few months have had minimal notations.

My weekly contacts are minimal. Just the 3 guys I see daily at work and my daughter, that I may get to see Tuesday's for more than 20 minutes. No one to talk to, in-person, on the phone or even on chat.  Even this blog has suffered.

I have not been able to have anything to say.. 
No insights, no new complaints.. Back to limbo.
It is a weird feeling.. I don't think my brain is quiet.. I know I have much to say, Just no way to squeeze it out of my fingertips..

Well, I have a week off from work next month.. Lets see if I can get anything done..
I don't think I can go anywhere, So I will probably be sticking around the house.
Maybe work on the cars, the yard and the house. 

This year has left all of us in a weird place.

R
7/25/20