Third time..

Ok..the last two posts got lost in my phone..
I have replaced my app.. And last nights post did not publish..
So... I will try again..

I do not remember the content of the previous posts..
I am more sorry than you..
I .. As always, I reread what I post to see what is in my head.
These posts are usually a result of a few drinks..and a complete lowering of my filters.

I have had a bit on my mind..and tonight found I was looking at the past..and brought a bunch of baggage to the top.. Old stuff.. Things forgotten..probably better off that way. But.. Now in my head..again..

But, I had a chat.. Just now..and the past isn't so important right now..

Yes, I have met people..people that I found I let into my circle and truly did not allow for the changes in the relationships.. Not all their fault, not all mine.. But the timing seemed better than it was.. And of course it fell part..possibly irrevocably..

But .. I do see why and what was the cause..no less fault of mine.. But sometimes you have to take what was said.. And see the why..and wonder..

If you choose to believe you are no longer my friend.. I respect that.

I have told others, and probably you ..if you want me to go away..say so.. I will.
I have. And I will.

It is no longer my will..want or decision.. But yours.

...

R