Project nearing the end

My boss and i had a conversation a couple months ago,when i was asking to modify my schedule.. in earlier and leave earlier on Fridays..to make my summer commute easier... the answer was no..and you chose to buy your house where you did.. i hired you to do the job you are doing.. and it requires to work the schedule you work. When you leave early..I get support calls..and i have other things i need to be doing....

My take away from that...my project ..the one i was hired for..is nearing completion.. so..does that mean..i will be let go?
That would suck..
I have worked hard..long..and done my best for what i am paid..
Get up and get to work early every day.. only late once..never missed a day..usually stay late..dedicated to the tasks ..  help where i can. Always learning..

I am just not sure what the future will bring..

Maybe i should put out some inquiries.. see what is around..in case i need to look..change.. i doubt i could match the city pay.. so it would mean major adjustments.. still only one income.. and bills for 3..

Really it is not that bad.. my friend allowed me to get almost totally caught up..with their hospitality.. another couple months and i would have had zero debt.. but change happened..and that with unexpected outlays..and living modifications.. i am back to month to month..a skilled juggling act of work...pay and payout.. planning and payment scheduling..
This all works as long as i dont crash my car or break something..
Sometimes to save money you have to spend money..which i have done..the timing does not always  cooperate..but get it done..and justify the investment. 
Then hope it works out.

Of course there is always things that can be done..
Plan..and schedule.. work it out...
And hopefully dont work yourself to death..and take a few days for yourself..

As they say. .. it is what it is.. make the best of it..
Find good things where you can..
Be a better person than you were yesterday.

I have met and known a lot of extraordinary people in my life..i miss those i was close to..those that helped me become me..even those that hurt me.. those that left me..those i had to leave..and those that just faded away.. they all made me who i am...

Although at this moment in my existence..I feel i am less than i was last year...

Who knows what turn is ahead..
I could be old and unemployed..and looking for a new situation..
I could continue to work harder everyday..and make a home i will never need to leave.. except leave to my next of kin.. give me 29 years to pay it off..

I am.thinking..about pouring a patio.. a place to set my firepit..and enjoy the next few summer nights..

You have to make plans.. just to give you a goal..

I really think i need a road trip..

R