Not much to post

I was thinking today.. i am in a place.. a quiet place..
I do not have much to rant about.. yes..i am...lonely..
But i am busy and tired.. the only thought time i have..is during my drive to and from work.. lately it is busy..and i have to pay attention to the road and the other drivers..a bit more than before.. so no time to get lost in thought..
My weekends have been short..and busy too.. so i am to preoccupied to think about me or my situation.

I guess that is good..
Work is stable... busy..but plenty to do..and even though my boss is in charge..they keep asking me how to do this.. or for my input..
It is kinda strange when he asks me if it is ok to do something..for my opinion..or approval to do it his way.
I work for him.. if he wants a suggestion.. i will offer it..but.. he is the boss.. he should decide .. i will make it work.
But.. more to do..and i am.expected to get it done.

Home..is my quiet place.. i spend much of my time there by myself.
L is either sleeping or shut up in her room..
I will cook dinner..and.let her know... she may join me. She may not.
So most times i eat alone too.

I have plenty to do at home.. it is a house after all.. mow the lawn..clean the garage..wash the car..clean the house.. cook..do dishes..pay bills.laundry....and so on..
Plus anything i think i should add.. a new shelf..an extra outlet..
General house maintenance.
I have radio work.. i have been getting that done..
It seems to be constant.. for now..
Just a way to feel accomplished.
I am paying my bills.and going to work every day..

So no real time to feel lonely..
Yet..i. am
And i know it..

Not a lot i can do to fix it..

But in all...i feel it.

I have broken it.. and cant fix it..

R 6/10/19