Tick tick..

Today was my last day at work.. But.. My assistant is taking family leave..so I volunteered to take call for this weekend.. He needs to be available for family reasons..and not be bothered by work..
They have to make adjustments to keep his remote access and email..
This works for me in my favor..cause I can keep using the company truck till Monday.. I have desks to move and a couch to donate..

We took down pictures, stickers and posters.. I reboxed collectibles and put them in the pod..
Moving desks and the couch..packing the kitchen table and the rest of the kitchen .. My closets.. And the garage this weekend.. Then my shop..desk and tools. The house is looking bare.. The cat is nervous. But..my work friend cannot take my cat..so I need to bathe and clean him..and probably give him benedryl and catnip for the trip..
He will hate me for a while.  But will love being in a house with 3 women.. The other animals.. Probably won't matter..as long as he gets to be around women..

I just have to get him there.

Tick tock.. I am getting close.

Miss you..

R 4/21/18

More done..more to do..

Morning went well.. Up early..recycled the oil.. Asked about tube TVs and monitors..up to 19".. I had 7.. Loaded and went back..they only allow 5 per household a year... Took the biggest ones.. Went to work.
Early lunch ..planned on going to the electronic recycler..ended up going to lunch w L. After work..another run to goodwill with kitchen..toys..and my dresser..and misc.. Then back to sort and stage..for tomorrow.. Cleaning out the shed.. Electronics and trash.
Kendal came over to pick up his belongings. We talked..he helped me to move furniture into the garage for tomorrow.. And the freezer..up and into the garage..I sold it to someone at work..along with the single bed..and L's desks.. I have to move those tomorrow after work.
I have to rebox some stuff from my under storage.. And clear off my work desk.. Pack my closet.. Get rid of L's bed .. I paid BestBuy to take my 2 tube TVs and have to dismantle the big screen.. For recycle.
I am making headway..and will see what I have left this weekend..
I have paid bills tonight and booked hotels for travel..
Steps closer.. Tick tick tock.. Soon!!!
Got to drop the couch..tomorrow or Friday morning...
Then..tools and the rest of the garage..

Wish me good thoughts.. I am glad the first hotel has a jacuzzi..

R 4/19/18

Miscalculated...

I don't have as much time as I thought.
I don't know where I thought I had a week after Friday..I have the weekend and 3days. So much to do..I won't have the truck after Friday. I need to move the furniture before then.. Couch.. 3 desks.. 2 tvs.. I need to order a dumpster??  Still cleaning out the crawl space.. Moved a lot tonight.. Oil recycle was a no go..try again tomorrow morning.
Again..electronics and paper recycle at lunch.. Good will after work..
I have cleaned out the kitchen except for what I am still using. I need to finish packing my bedroom.. Lindsey is doing hers..her desks are cleared..I'm giving one away..and my freezer.. I need to dismantle the kitchen table..I have moved my 10boxes of books Into the pod .. I need to move the records and mini fridge.. I still need to pack up my bench..and tools and my garage tools. I need to buy a new garage opener.. The guy that is buying the car is coming Saturday...

Packing tonight..I rearranged what is in the pod.. Stacked the heaviest boxes in the middle.. I am no where near the first quarter full.
I will rearrange again.. Adult Tetris..

Work.. It has been an interesting week so far .. Making an effort to keep working..getting things done.  The boss is taking me to lunch on Thursday.  He said he was gonna discuss all the projects I have done.

I am ready to start this next chapter..
There will not be much down time..except the travel.. 3 days..
Then a weekend.. And then the new job.

There is a few things that will happen before then..but..it has arrived and I need to be ready to get it done.
I am ready.

Bring it. Let me show you I can get it done.

R 4/18/18

Still...

Still working..and still back and forth to goodwill.. Got the scrap cashed in this morning.. $127.. Worked..then got home at 5:30..loaded the desk and a dresser..clothes..a couple room fans.. Off to good will..back..sorted..pulled down the stuff in the overhead storage in the garage..planning..staging. . then cooked dinner separated the electronics from the rest..sorted scrap paper.. Emptied boxes for packing.. Put some in the POD.. While dinner was cooking.. Emptied two more. Cupboard's.. I think tomorrow..I will take in the used oil..before work..
Maybe scrap electronics at lunch..and go to goodwill at 5:30.
I may be finally making a dent..
I have tasked L with emptying both of her desks..sorting her books ..
I need to work on one radio..then time to dismantle the workbench..
So much to do.. But.. Work is done on Friday.. So the weekend and all next week..packing and cleaning..is going to be my job.
I am so sore already.. I can only imagine..
Got to get this done!

R 4/17/18

Money and planning

The guy that wants to buy my other car.. Asked if I would take $200 less..yes..I said. And today..he asks if he can pay $100 less till Friday.. Budget Calculation error... I.agree..expecting him to take the car.. No. Friday..when he has the $100 . I have his money. And my car...till Friday..
I think he is genuine.. I just need the car gone.
The money would be nice too..
I think he will come up with all of it.

The day was packing and moving..I got my grocery shopping done early..went to the Sunday plan..but nothing.. So back home.. 2 more runs to good will ..a lot of packing and sorting..I tasked L with her desk..and dismantled mine..moved it to the garage and reassembled it..tomorrow morning..I will dump my scrap metal..and go to work.
Then to plan more recycle.. Before Friday.. Then I lose access to the truck.. I need to move 3 desks to goodwill..let's see if I can find help.
I have been moving everything .. Packing downstairs..moving it up..pulling it out from underneath.. Then moving it outside to the Pod..or trash or goodwill.
Still lots to get done.
This  week.. Next week..and half.. I may still need a trash dumpster for the rest..

Time..is ticking..

I am ready.

R 4/15/18

Not time to panic..yet

I hope I can get all this done...on time.
I shuttled stuff today.. Got rid of lots..more to do.
The car and motor stuff tomorrow.. Scrap metal Monday morning.
I still need to go into the crawl space and pull out the stuff in there..most is in boxes..and labeled..so it could go right to goodwill..or right into the pod. Or in the garbage.
I started another closet..half and half ..
I realized...after Friday won't be able to use the company truck.. So next week... I will have to squeeze in all the big stuff.. Or order a dumpster.

No idea..about the cat. L is good with leaving him with someone here.
She has considered the travel and hotels.. It may be best.
For all involved.

I have a lot to do..and figure out..

It will all be worth it..on every level..

:)

Let's get this done!

R 4/14/18

Packing..snowing

Work led a regular day. Stopped for supplies to pack..picked up a pizza.
Taped boxes I packed last night. Packed more from my closet. Sat on the couch for a minute.. Passed out for 3hrs!
Got up..got garbage bags and started sorting good will clothing donations. So far 2 large lawn bags full. More already in the garage.. Some has been there in a box for 15yrs..!!
After breakfast tomorrow, I will load the truck and get rid of it.
Then..hopefully..the chemicals - oil..and electronics. ..maybe.

I have boxes all over my house.. I need to start staging what is going in the Pod first.. And start packing it in.

Mindset....

I am fully prepared to end this chapter..and begin the next.
I am ready for better things..a better, rewarding life.. I will adopt my new family and build a better future. We will do things I should have been able to do many years ago..I am making a major life change...
I have before.. Several times.. But usually for someone else's Comfort... This is mainly for me. I am so happy to be able to do this..
Yes.. Others will benefit..enjoy this..but this time.. I am the primary reason I am doing this.. Everyone was considered...even the cat..but..this is what I have been working for.. Since I realized what I needed to be happy.. I will be working on it ..but with a smile..
To a positive end.. The 'perma-grin' may be back!!

I do not know what will actually happen in the next few weeks or months..but I am excited about it for the first time in a long time.
I will have people in my life that are close to me..and I will have a future..to look toward..
My plans.. Will help not only my mind..but others I care for..how can this not be the thing to do?
Things are falling In Place.
I am so.. Ready for this to happen.

This major life change will allow my 'loves' to be in my life..
The right place..the right job...the right person..and a new future for my own.. And others to add to this equation. ..
Perfect..

Time is ticking..and I have 12 days to travel.. And starting this new beginning.. Whoo hooo!!!

Let's do this!!! It is too late to turn back now!!

Hugs to those that need it!
Hugs and squeezes to those that deserve it..
The rest is for you....

!!!!!!!

I am not counting the days..yet..I am aware..of the time left... The. Count down is coming..
I am so...ready!

Hey! Future..see you soon!!

R 4/13/18

How much trouble can i generate?

Who..me??

Would I do that?

All that aside..I am a short timer..but put in 100%.. Till the last..

I just sent an email..i needed to send..I hope it was coherent.. And made the point..but in the end I won't be here for its aftermath.
But point made.

Moving on...

I am making a life changing decisions..now!
I will make this change for my and others happiness.
Yes..they have to decide if it is for them.. But we are offering it..we will live it..you are welcome to join.
We hope you will..
I know this is what I need to do.
I can be happy..and spread happy..
Smiles..and comfort.. Make a future and leave a legacy..
Yes..I love and hope my offspring will accept this gift..but I need to embrace my pending happiness.. And I will..!
Love you all. Let's be family!

R 4/11/18

Sunday..a day of work..work..work

It is not supposed to be...but it is what it is. Went in at 10a worked till 2p. Went back at 3p worked til 5p. Went grocery shopping then home to make dinner and eat.. Fell asleep on the couch from 7 to 10. Had to go back in..at 10:30... Long day for a Sunday.

But..it is almost Monday .. I will do what I do..and make it happen.
I need to contact PODS..I think the delivery may be in trouble.. I gave a credit card that would not cover the amount.. I need to fix that...
I did show my car for sale today.. He says he wants to take it.
Working on how to get it 30 mins up the road...
Tow or trailer. ..
It will be cash..
May even take the engine hoist.

One less thing to pack. Thus week I plan to start junking..recycling the things I can.. I need to pack..more..sort more.. Make a run or two to goodwill.. Pack my beer shirts.  Pack my radio stuff.. Ship the unfinished stuff.
Things to get done..
If you know me.. You know I will get it done.

R 4/9/18

Long weekend..

Early morning .. I was in work at 7:30..had a short lunch at 3:30 to 4:00. Then worked till 9:30. I don't have to be in till 9:00a tomorrow.. I hope we get time for dinner.. But prob work till 8:00p
Hopefully we can get most done by then. And won't have to do much Sunday.  I have been dealing with stuff for sale at home..figured I was getting scammed..so..scratch  that..start over.
Maybe get some stuff sold.. Some to goodwill or recycle..the rest ..trash. All the rest will get packed.. And put in the pod..to be shipped. I need to empty the house..shed..and garage. 15 years of clutter..junk and unfinished projects.
I really have not started..just a little..but I need to commit this coming week..
A lot of work..but if I don't..I won't. So I will.

For all those of you pulling for me.. Cheering me on in this new endeavor..this new chapter.. Thank you. I appreciate your good wishes and positive thoughts ..

OK.. Let's do this..

R 4/7/18

Continued..

I am very happy. I have thought this through. I have left little..some..to see what happens..how it works.. And most importantly..how everyone else feels. We will work through everything together. All of us. For everyone's benefit and happiness.  We can make this our future.
I am done struggling alone..feeling alone..being alone.  We are a family. I think time has redeemed itself and proved we are meant to be a family.
Time had been partners with distance..and now..I am fixing distance..and time has proven we need to be. We are what we needed.
We can work it to our mutual advantage...
I know I have been working to make karma work with me.
I have done my best to be a true friend..and I think I have been rewarded with a true friend. It is something we all need and rarely find.
I am working to my perfect 3..
The right place.
The right job.
The right person.
Having that in my life...will make me one of the happiest people on this planet.
I will be able satisfy my need for completion. Coherence.
I will have found what i have been searching for in all my adult life.

These past few months have been putting things in place.. Steering me..pointing me in this direction.. Showing me..daring me to act..to see..
The building blocks have been falling into place..one by one..
Stimulating my analytical mind..making me think and rethink.. Plan and scheme..calculate.. Figure it out.
I was mad at time..for teaming with distance..as much as I fought them..by traveling as often as I could.. I think I won..they submitted..
They realized I was not giving in..
I see time was on my side..making sure .. For me..and anyone I needed in my life.
(Yes! I need you in my life. You and everything you are)
I am comforted that time was actually there for me instead of against me..
For a long time..I felt time was my enemy..working against me..
Just ticking away..making me grey..old..
But..maybe..my being has caught up with my soul..
And my life has  caught up with me.. I feel like I am moving toward where I should be..
A place..a happy place.
One where we all can work on being happy.

Thank you.

If it applies to you..
Take it..I give it freely...happily.

R 4/6/18

Real Estate

I met with the agent..my neighbor..tonight. I set a target range. Signed some documents. Started the process. He is optimistic... He is thinking  4 days to sell once it starts showing. He has explained the fees..and I think I will do OK.
I have to pack and load the Pod. Sell..give..scrap everything else.
This weekend is booked with work..I will have to work at home after..if I am able. Work is calm..people are being good.. I am able to get stuff done.. It is a weird feeling being a short timer.
We will see
R 4/5/18

I have things to do..

I feel that I don't have a lot of time. The bit I have done so far..has barely made a dent. There is so much to do..I am a bit overwhelmed. I know it can be done.. It must be done.
I ordered a pod..it will be delivered Wednesday. L has started packing.
I have finished sorting and shredding..I have sold the car..and the engine lift...checks are in the mail.. I need to load a truck with electronics and visit the recyclers.. I need to clean out the garage.
There is still stuff under the house..boxes.. But really not that much..it will fit in the pod..as is..
Just have to keep motivated..
Keep thinking about where I will end up..the prize .. The gift for all my hard work.
I think i have earned it.
Time..will tell.
R 4/5/18

Fill in..

Here we are..I have the offer. The other took too long. I accepted the offer..it was better than I was lead to believe. It is hourly with the possibility of overtime.. it is $8 more an hour.. And with OT.. It could pay a few bills.. Even if my house takes longer than most to sell..I can make this work. My bills will be paid on time..and some will go away..putting $800 a month back into my spending money.. Even if the house takes a  month to sell..with stepping into a job..at more money..I should be more than able to maintain..and have money to buy what we need..and help the 'house' and still put some money away towards the new house.
I will be able to put money aside.. Pay bills.. And support the house.
We will all work together..and make this happen.
Get excited!! This will be a new future..for all of us.
It will work with little effort.

I am excited!!

I know..this life..I have been living..will change..
I will have someone to come home to..
I have a future to plan.. Options.. I will have a place to put my money..that helps my future..
The loneliness will pack and go find ISTBA !

Plans for me..you..and...the...rest.. Is a dream..come true.
And to have my friend there..close..
Win..win..win..!

The future looks bright..
Got to wear shades...

R
4/2/18