Getting close to the end of the year

Here we are in the middle of December. I am plugging away..making sure I am paying my bills..and trying to keep my house clean..and wondering where I need to be..I work too much..I dont eat regular anymore..I dont sleep well..I am alone more than with others. I have pushed away the one that wants to be with me..not intentionally, but by being too busy.. I cannot excuse that.. totally my fault.. life and work and bills have not made that happiness possible.. I just cant figure out where I am supposed to be...
R
12/17/14