Time

It is something no one has enough of.
Time runs out when you wish you had more.
I wish I had spent time, made time, had time..
I am afraid I will be saying good by to someone I love.
I do not know how or what to say.
Time has not reminded me that it was running away from us.
I have fo d childhood memories and many recent memories that I will never forget. I will regret not taking advantage of proximity when it was available. Time did not allow.. I did not put the proper importance on contact. I now wish I did..
Again .. I dont know what to say.. and am afraid.. to say good bye.
All I can say is I love you and am glad to know i have been a part of your family .
I am not a person that shows emotion openly.. but I will say you will be missed. And I have to apologize for my lack of contact.
I am embarassed because you are one of my favorite people.. and now time is short and I have blown it.

R 8/30/14

Life

Hello there...
Its been a bit...
First of all.. I have screwed it up.
Life got in the way of my stuff.
Work, college, work.. and stuff ... made me to busy to spend time..
Of course.. I know.. I should have made more of an effort.. but one day merged with the next..and the next.. till it was a blur.. and I had lost what I had.
Im sorry...
Not much I can say or do.. I could try to salvage... but ..it wont be forgotten..
I am not sure I could make good..
It is just bad timing..
Cause... I more alone now than ever.. I have work and tasks.. but no personal satisfaction..not much for me.. the primary work is in turmoil.. I have little evidence I am accomplishing any thing..and dont think im ever going to be compensated for what I have been doing..
Taken for granted...
Right now I am living for making Lindsey comfortable with being an adult ..but not sure who is holding on to whom...

I did something for me..but even though it was a great time..I did not get out of my shell and didnt experience all what it should have been..

I donr ever change..
And getting too old to try.

R
08/27/14

Vacation..

Yes , another... this one is for me.
I have been working too much again and so much giong on at the main job.. I really need it..
Its gonna cost me. Im guessing in a couple different ways...
But its adding up and I got to get away..
I hope things wont fall apart while im gone..
And if they do.. it isnt something thats gonna hurt too much.
Planning on leaving Sunday after dinner drop L off ..just head east.
Maybe even go thru Kansas...
Vot some stuff to do in the morn and afternoon and late evening.. so Saturday will be busy...
E is ignoring me.. again.. and J isnt being as friendly.. I am thinking that bridge is burning. Not vone but on fire..
We will see if I can meet a few miniacs in the next few thousand miles...
R 8/1/14