April

Yes, April is now over.
I am still me.. still frustrated.. still doing the day to day..
My reason for being on this planet is now an adult. I am fine with that.. I have been living this life to get here.. she still needs me..and I am happy for that.
I am making my days count.. I have just learned of someone I just met passing on.. she was my age and is now no longer.. I feel for those she left behind.. but it makes me question my own mortality..
You have to wonder...

Any way.. I am not doing what I should on all fronts.. and cannot figure out why..
I care.. but it just dont seem like enough..

I should be happy someone cares enough to want me around.. but...

There is no greener grass.. just not all what it should be..

I am not worthy..

(Thanks Wayne's world)

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Ill figure it out a day or two too late...

R. 4/30/14