Here I am.
Nothing to do, no one to do it with.
ISTBA
It must be summer.
Story of my life.
Not one anyone would read.
I have a lot to share. But no one to share it with.
That really sucks sometime.
I work and keep busy.
It isnt enough .. spent the last 20 working to be comfortable, for nothing. Dont get me wrong..what came out of it is the best.
I would not trade that for anything.. but that chapter is nearing its end.. and I dont know what to do.
Im not having any fun... not much to drive me.. I am missing out on all the rest.
I seem to be doing what I did when I was younger.. floating day to day.. accepting the day to day issues as all I can do.
I finally have my work life moving ahead.. but I cant get to comfortable. .changes are coming.. and I have no idea what to expect.. I cant be worried about it. It will happen if im prepared for it or not.
My personal life is just too expensive to be any good.. I need to change it.. its just me and not anything to be happy about.
If you have read any of this blog..
You will see I am seeking and hoping but striking out ..
I get too attached too quickly.. and then try to slow it down and destroy what ever may have been.
I do not have the best means of selection.. or make the best choices..
Unfortunately what worked in my past no longer applies..
I was a fixer.. but back then the younger me coul afford to fix people that were broken.. their problems were less complicated than an older person.. now I cant be looking for that.. I cant fix the avg persons issues.. they are just too different.
I need to find ... someone that dont need fixing..dont need me... just needs someone to love and to be loved by.
Too deep.. ?
Too much?
ISTBA.
R 6/8/13 11:23p
Nothing to do, no one to do it with.
ISTBA
It must be summer.
Story of my life.
Not one anyone would read.
I have a lot to share. But no one to share it with.
That really sucks sometime.
I work and keep busy.
It isnt enough .. spent the last 20 working to be comfortable, for nothing. Dont get me wrong..what came out of it is the best.
I would not trade that for anything.. but that chapter is nearing its end.. and I dont know what to do.
Im not having any fun... not much to drive me.. I am missing out on all the rest.
I seem to be doing what I did when I was younger.. floating day to day.. accepting the day to day issues as all I can do.
I finally have my work life moving ahead.. but I cant get to comfortable. .changes are coming.. and I have no idea what to expect.. I cant be worried about it. It will happen if im prepared for it or not.
My personal life is just too expensive to be any good.. I need to change it.. its just me and not anything to be happy about.
If you have read any of this blog..
You will see I am seeking and hoping but striking out ..
I get too attached too quickly.. and then try to slow it down and destroy what ever may have been.
I do not have the best means of selection.. or make the best choices..
Unfortunately what worked in my past no longer applies..
I was a fixer.. but back then the younger me coul afford to fix people that were broken.. their problems were less complicated than an older person.. now I cant be looking for that.. I cant fix the avg persons issues.. they are just too different.
I need to find ... someone that dont need fixing..dont need me... just needs someone to love and to be loved by.
Too deep.. ?
Too much?
ISTBA.
R 6/8/13 11:23p
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