Well I was right, I guess I can't win for long.
Finally verified why, and truly depressed about the reason.
I wish I could fix this. I was getting better, had a reason to smile but, messed it up being what I thought I needed to be.
Sometimes friendship is over rated, especially when the friend knows they can take advantage of your good nature.
Here I am, alone again because of it.
Really, I am a nice guy.. just no one will let me be that way.
:(
I just want to be happy.. and to be able to help someone else be happy. You know be happy together.
Not too much to ask. At least I've always thought it wasn't too much to ask..... so I find its tougher than I ever thought.
I was looking forward to a good weekend.. I guess I will lock my self in my room and hope I can get my technical brain around some repair work, I have enough of it, and if all cooperates I might get some personal satisfaction and make a few bucks.
I am bummed out.. figures just when I was hoping to be, I find out I am not. It sucks that it happens again and again.
Really not where I wanted to be at this age. (Or any, for that matter) I just am so tired of being alone. Feeling like no one cares. And all my efforts are in vain. I just don't get it.
Back to me.. work work work.. nose to the grind stone, no one will even notice..
LSTYD.
Right there with ISTBA !
R
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