booked

I decided to go..

I booked a air BnB..only to find they eanted a $500 damage deposit..refundable..but not! 

So I canceled it... Booked a hotel down south ..near Old Cs! 

Maybe plan on the cog and maybe seven falls . Maybe go to the station..

Its a week.. 

Hopefully see the people .

And chat with Caraigh..

Or more..

I would like to see Anita.. and Cathy..it will be nice, of course Dave and Kendal.. maybe even Mike.

I need to make the best of the time.

I would like to commit a considerable amount of time to one in general if it works out........

No worries no pressure..just a hope..

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The cars are good. Pearl needs an oil change.. Revington needs a recall service as well..

Got to schedule that..

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Put in for the time. . Should have no issue getting it approved.. i booked a hotel and prepaid . So, lets see.

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Ali should be home...her sister went too. I hope they both have a great time together.

I need to plan a visit . .

Hopefully I am still welcome.

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I was home all day.. Sunday.. I needed an excuse.to go out.. so I went shopping at S&S.. but went back home.. made an early dinner so I could get a brownie Sunday.. and drinks.. been working on radios and stuff.. but it was a slow day.

Nothing planned for Monday, maybe meet with Enie and collect his kenwood.

Gonna sleep in ..

... 

So nothing going on at all.. bored, lonely. Alone.. not a bad thing..but not what I want .or ever wanted.

...

Oh well ......

R

back

Back to a regular work week. Out for dinner..looks like the Manager got a demotion? Or at least isnt our manager any longer.. the new DOE is the manager.

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I do not have to be at the airport on the 4th..so I am thinking a road trip..

Checking hotel prices... October.. not a good time to be treking..but.. get in a week and see. Not sure of an itinerary.. see Dave..Kathy..Caraigh...Anita..maybe take in some sites. Maybe the Cog..maybe visit the station...

Wondering how close to stay to what..

Could be cheap... Could be expensive.

.. just need to go..

If I go cheap..i may not enjoy..but maybe just use it as a last resort base...

I should... 

I just need to talk myself into it....

.

R

summer is over

Just a quick note..

Summer is over..

Ali is headed home..

It is the sign of summers end.

I think we are missing on all levels but one..friends. that is where we end ...

Delays..bad timing.. bad circumstances..and misunderstandings..

All this time..and this is what it becomes...

... 

Im sure in that different time line

. .. it was glorious.. but . .. I am here .

And I missed it..

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Till next time

...

R

normal

Kinda a normal Saturday. Up early enough to do the laundry and groceries.  .. even shipped some radio parts out.

Then did the rear brakes on Pearl..

Found the squeaking was because the pasenger rear break pads had seperated from the plates.. and one on the driver side.

I did replace both rotors and both wheel bearing hubs.. the vibration is gone too! 

So other than the fact that the driverside caliper rubber is pinched and torn ... I know I will be replacing it someday. But for now it is better than ever.

Found lots of rust and looking at new rear shocks someday in the future. 

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But got it all back together and took 

a shower then we went to dinner.

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Busy but productive day. 

R

right decision

Well, since I have a cold, I decided to cancel going to dinner at Kathy's. 

I don't want to get anybody else sick. Its just a cold, but no idea how it would affect her mom or moms boyfriend. That are both in their 80's.. and Ali and Kath are traveling next week . 

Best not to share my cold.

I did miss put on homemade Boston Cream pie... Ali is gonna bring me a plate.. hopefully a slice of pie too.

So after work, sleep and a shower,i feel pretty good..maybe im at the end of it.

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joseph have improved.. he is eating and meowing less. J and L and I have been dispensing his meds.. he is better with it that I expected. And it seems to help..

No report from the vet yet .

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Tomorrow is chore day.. groceries and laundry.. I should also do the rear brakes on Pearl 

And look at the wiring to the PCV on Betty ..if I can find it.

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Got stuff to get in the post . And need to look at the Kenwood again..

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But its a 3day weekend ..  

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R

tomorrow is friday

End of the 2 week coverage.

I have a cold.. Joseph is sick.

Had to take him to the vet ..urgent care. He is going to be ok.. needs meds.. tough to give a cat a pill and a liquid..but he does feel better once his meds kick in.poor guy..

Waiting on the results of the tests.

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I made adjustments to the mortgage..indirectly..I lowered the extra coverage on the insurance..and paid the insurance $500.. toward next years bill. Hopefully it will keep the mortgage from increasing.

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I have a cold... Started with 2 days of sore throat ..now all congested..

I hope its over quickly..

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Tomorrow evening is dinner at Kathy's..I will need to get pizza and Subs for the house before I go .

I wish I didnt have a cold.

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So .. its Thursday..im congested..tired but full and ready for sleep.gonna finish my meal..and go home. Hopefully sleep.

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Ive spent money this month..made some charges..and worked some OT..I have also gave some cash way..and paid for the cat's medical.

I reatructured the escrow..made money reductions to the house insurance..in an effor to keep the mortgage down.

Ive bought stuff online ..utilizing the dormant cards... But will have to pay them off as they come due...

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Keeping the credit good..

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I ordered and received prarts for Pearl..I need to do that thus weekend.

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Thats it for now..

I need sleep.

R

week done

I made it through the first if the 2 coverage weeks.. 

The last couple days have been hard.

Not sleeping well.. not getting to sleep early enough.. getting up on time and to work on time . Just ling days. I have not felt so worn by the end of the day in a long time.

By the time I get used to this it will be back to the regular schedule.

Oh well...

I did get some OT this week and last week.. and I forgot to log the holiday . So I corrected that! 

Plus the early mornings pay 15% differential !!  So 2 weeks is 10 days with a 2 hour a day % differential..

It should be a decent paycheck.

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I have almost $3k on radio cash put away.. it would help on a road trip...

..

I have the normal Saturday chores tomorrow.. laundry and groceries.. 

Hopefully will see Ali.. and we can do something together.

Maybe if the weather is good, we could do the cliff walk? 

I will suggest.. we can do the back roads and spend the day .

..

I do need to get some of the radios fixed.. 

And mow the lawn( translation.. weeds)...

..but spending time with Ali is more important.

..

L and J have had a good week.. and L is back to work on Sunday. 

The dental was a success and she is happy with the results.. and the new meds have had no issues ..  as far as Ive been told..

Im not a fan of meds.. but some are needed and work as prescribed.

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Gingers ..

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Nothing happening anywhere else.. 

I guess it's a good thing...

...

R

tomorrow is friday... a Friday..

Been a ling week.. poor sleep, early mornings long days.. I worked 2 hours late yesterday and one hour late today .  The afternoon traffic is still bad.. got tomorrow and another week of this.. Monday we get our new boss. Hopefully he is easy to work with..

I got home after work today and was worn out.. took a nap and alept 3 hours. So now its after 8 PM and im out for dinner.

...

Yesterday I got one of the two mail in boards fixed . I need to replace a few parts on the second one. 

.. I got Enie's Kenwood fixed and the other mobile and took them to him Tuesday after work.

I need to get back into the big radio for the HAM guy. And look at the rest that have been waiting.

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Last night L and J and I went to the Hibachi place and celebrated J's third year with us.

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As always , I have no idea what I am doing, I think I know what I want..but nothing I do helps me get there. I just seem to get further away. All the effort is useless. Oh well.

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I need to plan a road trip.. a go visit run. My excuse will be to stretch the new engine's legs.. but I need a few days away from work.. and a road trip is probably the best way.. plus I have time to burn.. 

I may be nice to see the old friends and all that includes.

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The summer has flew by..nothing notable.. supported Ali and went to the memorial and the service. 

I got to spend time together.

..we also did the ferry to P-town and spent the day together. That was fun.

We even got in a swim at the pond.

So the summer was not completely wasted.

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The family property issues still prevail.. no payout.. just more BS from the Lawyers..

And more fighting among the different families..

It may be over by the end of the year.

As always the town and the lawyers are the only ones making any money.

That age has passed.. and we are so far from it that it will never be the same.

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Ordered rear brakes for Pearl.. gonna do that before the weather changes..

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To keep sane, I am just doing the work thing..no plans there except keep on for at least 7 or 8 years.. we will see if the new manager or the sale of the company affects that...

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Desert then home and sleep.

R

lets try this ...

Had a few thoughts earlier. 

Let see... How far. .  

In the past..

I loved a girl. .. she was sweet, beautiful friendly and I thought loved me too......

Ok.. multiply that a few times..

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Same story a few times...

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The first.. worth reminiscing about..

Was a blonde cutie.. we met along the usual lines.. mutual friends and shared interests..

Took me a few years to finally date her . . It was an honest effort..

We dated for 3 weeks... remember that . .. she and I only went out once . Planned on a movie.. I don't remember where we went . But got her home on time and every other date never happened..  the final date, I went to pick her up.. her mom (we were kids) said she went roller skating with friends . . ?? .. so I went to the rink.. and tried to catch her on the floor.. she was a better skater, every time I got close she avoided me... 

So, I took off my sweatshirt..and snuck up on her.. tapped her on the shoulder, said hi! And see you, im going home.

I left..

..years later.. I met ran into her  at a store.. we chatted a bit.. I said you know I really liked you. Her reply was, ' I really liked you too...I dont know why I did that to you...' I just replied..'did what?' ....

.....

I have saved conversations with another...I ran across... 

We were chasing eachother for a few months.. we were former coworkers..and she approached me.. expressed interest..and we went back and forth for a few months with out ever dating..we finally went out a couple times..weeks apart.. and it ended.. I realized later she had been dealing with an abusive boyfriend/ex-boyfriend..and then even though she knew our age difference, Was convinced , probably by her mother, I was too old for her.. she broke it off.

...no explanation. Just done .

..

My issues are, if you seek me out.. .lure me in.. develope a better relationship with me . .. I think I deserve either an explanation when either im not up to your expectations or you think I dont want you. Before you evaporate. Dont just disappear, stop communication.. I do my best to dedicate time for you If your in my life.. even if we cant see each other every day.. if I end up guessing if I have done or not done something..I have already lost ....

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I had a conversation with a different person recently.. we had a relationship.. it changed.. the time and distance thing..

I have made comments about that before..

but we remained good friends and still are .

.. we had a vacation together, after we were more just friends..

And it was good till it wasnt.. and the vacation was over.. several years later.. we met up on a visit.. they apologized for treating me badly when I visited.. I just said thanks, but I dont know what you are talking about...

I do. I don't want to discuss it.. because I would need explanations..not apologies..

I don't think anyone will know why..

..I cared and we had already discussed the no boyfriend thing, just friends situation.  I was ok with all that. I just wanted to be with you when you were around, as I told you..  So we could be together when we were available.

Life.. only gives us this . I just wanted it to be happy while it was...nothing more..

The weave and the wheel comes around when it does.. 

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Im not sure if I have another left in my schedule..I think I have missed all my chances..

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I dont even think the 3 week rule works anymore.

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Just keep on with my day to day.. and see where I end up ..

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R

friendship and family

Went to both events with Ali. I was not sure if I wanted to, but did for support. The family accepted that I was supporting Ali.. and them. It was appreciated. It was an interesting first event in honor of the child. 

I am friends to both grandparents and Ali. So it was important that I showed my support. 

I went to the second event..the service, as support for Ali. Her sister recognized that I was there for her.

I do not like funerals of any kind. But. It was well done. As i expected it would be. 

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Work has been busy.. still having transmitter issues.. not sure why ..

Annoyed..but I need to get it fixed.

Some network issues..but cant pin it on that.. fixed a few related things and have another firmware update to do..it could be related...I have the HVAC guys scheduled for next week..

.. still pulling cable..I did get the door opener installed today . hopefully it will work better than the paint can. 

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Radios..

Little headway.. thinking about how to proceed.. I have an Idea.. 

Still working on Enies Kenwood..not sure why there is new fails..go through and check everything and fix what needs to be done... 

The big base.. I was told he did the power supply install.. I think the DC amp voltage is or has AC on it..

Got to confirm amd fix it.

..bought a scope..its physically bigger than I thought..bit seems to work. Probably paid too much..but I can always sell it later..I need to make room for it on the desk.

. The Stoner ..need to have time to figure out what happened.. and reinstall the new Final. See if I can get it to TX..

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L finally got the tooth pulled. In chair no surgeon.. local anesthesia.. went good. 

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A regular Friday tomorrow..then 5 days of morning shifts..for the next 2 weeks.

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I need a vacation..

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R