Friday..

Made to the end of the week . 

Typical day tomorrow.. groceries and maybe work on the car or radios.. then the drive for food. Not sure if the forecast, we had storms tonight.. but by 10pm it was clear and cool.

No new plans or issues.  I requested time off, no problem there.  Got the approval.  I have asked J to check up on the cat. They agreed.  So it should be good too. 

To day was a bit strange.  Just a feeling.  Out of the norm.. but got some stuff done . ..And have  a task.. training to do. We need to finish a few courses and then go up for a class and a certificate.. 

Sounds boring..but necessary..

I need to plan the drive.. it should be 12 to 15 hours out and back.. maybe a stop on the way out and back. 

I suggested a stop at the hall of Fame . But probably not. 

I hope this goes well..and stays good.. for all involved. 

I have a bunch of radios to figure out.  I also have been getting emails for chips.. but only inquiries.. so far. 

The controllers that were dropped off are gonna need about $700 each in parts.  Not sure if I want to invest that . ..at a guess.. cause if I don't fix it...it's lost money . 

That is if the components are available.. 

They are very expensive controllers...

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So nothing new from overseas.. 

Last I heard they were on the way back to Scotland.. and after we're going to Sweden ..then maybe back to Scotland..?? 

I have tried to keep in touch..but... The time difference is a thing.

And it is as usual...mostly one sided .

So. ..

Nothing new there. ....

Finances are good so far.  I have to put an effort into new car insurance and maybe home insurance too. 

Maybe it will drop the mortgage payment a little.. 

I am down to one card payment a month and the student loan and utilities, phone and food and gas.

Fortunately the overtime has been somewhat regular. I also got a cost of living raise.. and in January is my first job performance review.. hopefully a raise too. 

Still keeping in my means.. and not sure what costs will be with the new roommate . I know initially no rent.. and I'm sure there will be added utilities and food.. maybe I will have to ask  L to pitch in. 

We will see. 

I hope it don't turn into a disaster.. 

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I asked J for a massage.. never happened.  I have been jacked since the trip to Chicago.. 

I would have paid.. 

It is what it is . 

R

plans

Ok..we are gonna do this .

We are going to go pick up a new roommate. 

Basically rescuing them from their situation.. 

I hope there are no hidden issues.

It will be an adventure. We are driving out an picking them up and bringing them back. 

Let's see. .. 

R

more...

After clearing the codes ...I drove 140 miles .and no new codes.. must have been a glitch . 

The second trip down to the end of the road, went well.. L came and met a friend, and talked for two hours on a bench on the street..  then we drove home... Really long day... 

Today was busy, and I was dragging a bit..had.. .have a headache.. all day..

Probably dehydrated..and tired..and stressed from driving the big truck.

But the day went well..and I'm off till early Sunday ... I have to be up at 3..to be at work by 4..to pickup the truck and be onsite by 4:30....

I should be done by 1:00p... 

We will see.

So tomorrow is groceries..and radios..and laundry..then drive out to Sonic for dinner.. 

It will be a full day.

Till next time..

R

carnival

This has been a long day.  I got up and hour early to meet a guy with some equipment for repair. Then went to work, and fueled the big truck, and drove out to the end of the road to setup for carnival. 

We were there for the parade..which didn't start till 3 and went to 5.. then the drive back to the shop.

We landed at 7. So a long day. No issues , which was very good. 

I got home at 7:45. I had new codes on my car. I cleared them out. The car seemed to run fine after I cleared them .. same codes as November and February.. 

More later..

R

hello world...

Yeah! I thought I would throw that out there.. the programmers first attempts.

It is strange to me.. I have been here..and there... And still feel I am starting fresh..like I have no idea what I am doing.. or what I have accomplished..or been able to do.. 

Every day is like I have never done this before and have no idea how to start.. 

I have done this... I know I can.. 

I have been successful..I have found things.. and made good times.. 

Why can't I figure out what works.. 

I cannot be that lucky.. there has to be something I do right..

I have known some beautiful people.. known them well..... It always seems to be ... Never enough..but usually it's fun while it is new and fresh..

So..why can I never figure out the formula? C19 aside..I should be able to locate someone.. someone looking for a pleasant diversion..

Really, I just need someone that wants me around.. I don't even need someone to 'need' me..just allow me to have some of their time... Give me a little more to do than be home alone .. fixing stuff...

If I look back.. I have found many good things.. things that I have welcomed into my life..and enjoyed most of it.. yeah, there has been issues and breakdowns.. and eventually it was over.. but I did it.. or allowed them in... 

It wasn't hard... To start.. 

I just have never figured that formula..or procedure... I Just have no one to apply it to . ...

.....

So..

I have spent time fixing Ls car.. and just replaced the sensors.. I need to see if the code comes back..or if it's fixed... If not..it's $$$$

Still fixing radios.. it seems that it will never end.. but..I think that is good.. 

It does keep me busy.

So..L has been askig if a friend can come live with us.

I .. with reservation. Am ok with it.. but lots of what ifs to deal with..

It may happen..it may work..

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Work has been good..I am trying to be the fixitguy.. but not as good as I think I am.. I am learning.. and have made several contributions.. 

The money isn't as good..but I am surviving..so far..

So ... What's next??

I think I need ....

Yeah.

R

doing ok .. I think..

Ok..my phone has been acting up..so I finally reset it.. only lost a couple phone book contacts.. but all the rest came back. 

Still slightly glitchy..and the old features are still hidden or gone.. but the GPS seems to be working better . ..I may just need to wipe it and start fresh . ... No app recovery..just a blank phone. 

I was considering opening a local phone plan... Local number ... Different provider.. better data plan..

But keep this one.. and see how different it is.. then decide which to keep.. it is a thought.. been with this carrier for 30yrs.. 

...

Yeah, really.. 30!

....

So.. I posted a pic . And got a response.. just a comment... But a response.. 

Maybe tomorrow I will reach out and ask what's next.. 

Got plans in the morning to go work on the car.. then ...if it don't take all day.. go grocery shopping.. then..maybe. See if M is home or see Jen... Beginning of the month.. maybe a final payment...?? No requirement...just a possibility...

If not..maybe go swimming..before our drive to the drive-in.

No one else.. nothing else.. nothing new.. 

This week's paycheck was as big as expected.. could have been bigger..but my OT pay is equal to last year's hourly pay..scary thought.. 

But..so far.. 7 months in..surviving..not banking any extra..but not touching the reserve.. much...and just got a small raise.. 

And no new bills to add.

, ........

So... What to do next..?? 

I missed MTTS2022.. MOTM is next year.. as is M take Rt66.. it's August..and I have vacation time.. 

L is not ready..and with the latest 'POX' in the news..prob won't be.. 

The current generation is in a bad place.  The future isn't so bright anymore.. I am worried  about them.

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Ok.. I have been avoiding the subject..but..with 'enhancement' I should maybe try to express what's up...

ISTBA.. is back.. quiet..but back..

I have no idea what I'm doing, no clue how to move to the next ..

I'm kinda lonely..and been ...doing the day to day. .  staying busy .but wishing.. 

I know without something new..it won't change..and there is nothing new..no place to meet or see new . ..

I was hoping to settle in..but..C19 and life stepped in..and yep...here I am alone..I think I have been alone for a very long time.. nothing changes. .. because I'm not making a change..at least not a positive change.. nothing forward..just the same..

Yes , Einstein..I cannot keep doing the same thing and expect different results.. 

It is hard to get out of the rut.. 

...I am trying.. just a little.. 

... .

So ... What is next.. ??? 

Revisiting old flames isn't it..

Revisiting missed opportunity isn't working. 

Meeting new .. is still difficult..if not impossible..  

I have no network... No friends ... No suggestions .. or opportunity..

...

Yes, I need to break out and step over the barrier..and take a chance when it is In front of me .. 

It is tough .. 

I am so lost.. I have been trying for so long ...and feel I have wasted my best on lost causes. ... Too blind to realize it was wasted ..  on a dead end.. it took 20 years to manifest ...but it was a dead end.. 

And I was stuck with nothing ...

Well not nothing..I survived .. and continued..

With little bits of happy.. but...the end result ... Just happy memories.. nothing left.. 

I take satisfaction in the monetary plusses and comfort level.. but I'm nearly 60...and that part is "expected". .. I have adulted.  And adulted well..but..by this time I should not be lonely..or alone....

Yet.. here I am....

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Don't get me wrong.. I am happy.. not sad or depressed..just need to share with someone ... My successes..my day to day... 

.  Hello.. Blogger...

..  comment censored...

Yes, a thought..but not fit for print..

... And no I won't remember what it was tomorrow...

(It was sexual).....

I really need someone...someone to lust over . ... 

It isn't much to ask...maybe it is...

But..I need someone that needs me.. physically..  yeah it's adolescent..but I feel its the way of life ... Find something or someone...that makes you feel young.. all the time.. 

...

Maybe that is it..

Find someone that makes you feel young.

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Ok .. help me find you .. I know you are out there...

Probably why old guys look for young girls...

I know there is someone my age looking for the same thing....

Hello!

...

R

August ..

Welcome to August.

This year is moving right along.

A is in the UK.. and we touch base every now and then. I think she is having a good time.

Most of the contact has been started by me. She sends nice scenery pictures. I think she is in her last scheduled location, she has not mentioned what is next.

Work is busy.. I think we are earning our keep. So far we have been getting things done. The new guy seems to be doing well too. 

I think he likes working with us. 

The supv is out of town on vacation..and we have had plenty to do.. I was on call the last 2 weeks.. 

I got pages a few times.. and I should also be paid for my expense report from the Chicago ..and 21 hours of overtime..on call and extra hours.. I'm sure the taxes will take a major portion..but should be a decent paycheck.. 

Planning on working on Ls car Saturday morning.. I have the parts I need..and Jeff has offered his dad's garage with the lift. Hopefully it goes well.

I have a few new radios to complete..and already need to order parts for 2 of them. 

I collected 2 from the son of an old friend..he is visiting for his step-fathers funeral. I did get to talk with my old friend.. his mom.. I have not seen her since 1990, when I moved out of the garage apartment I rented from her and her husband.

Got one radio finished..the other will need parts. 

I expect it will be a full weekend..it's supposed to rain...

I did receive the parts I ordered..and will start in on the ones waiting on the bench. 

I have chores to start/finish.. house cleaning . And the like..

That is it..

Nothing else new.. 

R