This where I am

Well I am as busy as I can be.
Working 16 hrs all week.. staying late at the site. Trying to fix an issue.. not getting anywhere. Going home late after a bite and a few beers.. then sleep poorly..to do it all again.. then a morning meeting on Saturday. Then a drive to Denver and pick up the kiddo and bring her back home..shopping and dinner and tomorrow up to the site again.... sent a text.. asking for company in the 3 hrs to myself.. and got no reply...
That bridge ..may be blocked...
I have stuff to do..and will do it..
Priorities.
My personal dont matter..I need to finish what I started and continue to support the lil adult I am responsible for..
Im not done yet.. and I feels like I am the one and only..
Got to do what I need to....

Have a drink.. go to sleep and get back to work...

R 7/18/14

Me

It just me.
As if that can be..
Its just me.

I am here.
I am me.
Just me.

Im not that difficult..
But some dont see
Im just me.

Some expect me to be this or that..
But if you knew me..
You would see...
I am still who I was.. me.

Dont try to change what I am..
It will disappoint every time..
Like changing spots.. it dont happen.

Me

Love me or leave me..

Me!

R 7/16/14

School

I have started down the road to the empty nest.
I moved my girl into her dorm last wednesday. And school starts on Tuesday. She's home for the weekend.. and probably the next few weekends..
She is grown up.. and slowly realizing it.
I am happy and proud. And expect nothing less fron her.
She will do well.
All my time has been getting ready for this.. and works are still busy as always. So this makes me kinda preoccupied with making sure it all goes well.
My schedules are giong to change and I will make the exceptions I must to make this work for her.

As always my personal life is in the way back seat.. but I expect that to change someday.

But I am doing this ..indirectly.. so I cannot complain.. and I wont..

This is what every Dad hopes for, that start for their child..and the knowledge that he has helped as much as he should to allow his child to move to adulthood.

I wont say I have done it all.. but the past couple years have been important and I have been there for her. As it should be.

Most people are suprised im not a wreck because she has moved out and is moving on.. but as I said before.. this is what I have been striving towards.. and she is not disappointing me.. I could not be happier.

R 7/12/14

And so it begins

Tomorrow is the day.. I drive my girl to her first apartment an hour away. She starts college in a week.
I cannot be prouder. I have helped this person become an adult.
I am as frightened as she is.. I know she has the tools to go on and discover her independance. But hopefully she will make friends and her roomates will be good friends and people that will help her grow.
I will be here for support and she will come home on weekends until life shows her more than she has known.. and it will all be good.
I can only hope she has learned what she needs and moves forward and has a good time while it happens.
I have to adjust to having the house to myself.. and being alone with the cat waiting for me to come home..

Here it comes..what ever it can be....

R 7/8/14