Where have you been, buddy?

ISTBA?
ISTBA?

Ok.. I see.. your hiding on me..
Its ok. I'm doing ok with out you.

Funny, when your not around, I'm still tired, but getting sleep.. better than usual sleep.. must be my bed.
No room for you , ISTBA.. so I guess I have room to sleep.

I won't say I don't expect you to come sneaking around.. you probably will.. even if its just to check on me.

Its all good.

R 11/30/13

Sharing

Hello. If your reading this, I must say it isn't really all that interesting.. but it is me for the past few... its not always clear what I am saying by design.. someday someone will read and know more than they expect.. and I don't have any excuses for how I feel at any given moment. I just put it out there..
The people in my life know part of me and in most cases its better that way. Anyone I have shared this blog with must understand me to know why I let them in on it..
Mostly this place is for me.. and if you stumbled on it.. good reading..if I shared it with you.. please don't judge.. its just a way for me to keep what little sanity and day to day composure.

And that being said.. this weekend was yet another.. ups and downs and me trying to find peace with myself.

R 11/17/13

November

Yes, I know its November. . I also know I am a fool.
Nothing much changed there. I should be doing stuff. .. but am bored...lonely... and tired..
I should call it a night.. bag it and go home..
Got stuff to do.. but its hard getting motivated.

But some time I will...

Thanks J for listening to me ramble..

But I need to scale it back and save some $$

I'd get more done.

Arrghhh...
R 11/14/13

Weird

Yep.. weirdness. .
But not home alone..
Out and gonna pay for it tomorrow. .
We will se what that will be.....

R

Sorry.

I have been neglecting the posts.. staying busy.. or at least occupied.
But I am still good friends with Istba..
And not seeing any changes in the near future..

The 8th passed with no fanfare... not that I expected any different...
Got to reschedule my life..

Feeling alone and lonely..


Rearranging my house.. and painting and stuff like that...

Just lack of anything else to do..

Yippie.. ki yay...

R

Hello again.... ..

Well, been busy.. trying to stay occupied without being a hermit. Still spending money and still going out after works.. probably should cut back a bit.. but better than going home and veg'ing till sleep.. I should be fixing and painting and re-arranging.. but not In the mood.
Getting to be that time of year...lonely alone times.. but..
I didn't mention.. the roomates have moved out.. the cat is pissed. The room is empty.. I have washed the walls and prepped to paint.. I've bought the paint.. and am ready to refurb.. I have ideas.. and have began moving stuff.. and rearranging.. and replacing what found new homes.... as I notice I needed it...
L is doing ok with it. And loving having the house to herself.

I am still lonely and wish I had someone to occupy my thoughts.

But ISTBA is my me.. and I have to endure..
And the Absolut and beer is filling that void. Getting costly, but it beats being home alone... or is it home lonely...
One in the same...
Anyway.. its day to day..and I will move on the next.. what ever that will be..

R
11/5/13